Then there are those days that when nothing seems to go right, but God asks you to just trust him. I struggle and I cry, how can I God? I need to control this.
The first four weeks of uni has been insane. I’ve had so much to do, I didn’t even have time to go to class. I’m not really sure whether things will work out and everyday I go to bed praying for God to see me through the next obstacle in my journey. I panic myself to sleep, waking up in the middle of the morning wondering whether it’s time for me to get started to my next task. I don’t sleep well at all. I have so much on my mind, it’s quite hard to focus even when I’m having a conversation with my friends. Yet, each step of the way, God asks me to trust him. Sometimes I do, sometimes I don’t. But for some reason, he takes care of me all the same. It’s nothing that I do that makes him love me and work things out for my good. Nothing I bring to the relationship is any good, and yet in weaknesses, God carries me through. In my weakness, God’s love is made perfect.
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.
2 Corinthians 12:9